It’s so crazy how much can change at the last minute. One minute I’m sitting on the couch with a swelled up ankle wondering when life was going to get exciting again after all this quiet time at home. Then the next minute after a fairly brief phone conversation I’m planning on leaving for Florida in two weeks for at least a year. That’s right, I am off on another aupair adventure, only this time it’s just across the U.S., not across the world. This similar kind of situation of just picking up and leaving happened with both of the families I was a nanny for in Morocco and Canada. Once I get to know these families over skype and e-mails, and I have that confirmation feeling from God, nothing is holding me back. This time was very easy to agree to come on short notice because I’ve had a good feeling about this family for a while and I see a lot of growth for myself spiritually in Florida this next year. This was so much to process today in that short amount of time though. I immediately had these butterflies in my stomach from all the excitement while also having a heavy heart. When I started to think about all that I will be missing I started to feel a little sad. Two weeks isn’t much time to say my goodbyes and do everything I wanted to do here before I leave. I feel like I just got here. It hasn’t been that long since I’ve finally been fully unpacked. There are things I won’t get to do. There are places I won’t get to see (sorry South Sister, you’ll have to wait until next summer). More devastating, there are people I won’t be able to see before I leave. I have faith though that if I put as much effort as I can in these next two weeks, that I will be fully packed up again in no time, all the errands I need to take care of will be done, and that I will see every person I am suppose to see.
Tonight after church, I went up to one of the pastors and had a conversation about hearing God’s voice. It came at perfect timing. He told me what has helped him and the next paragraph is basically me paraphrasing what he told me. It’s a good reminder for myself and maybe others will find it helpful as well. We think that God always wants us to hit right on the bulls eye when we are trying to figure out what He wants from us. Most of the time He’s okay with us hitting a nearby target, and he’ll get us to where He wants regardless. Hearing God isn’t so mystical and mysterious as people make it out to be. His voice sounds a lot like our voice, after all He’s given us his Holy spirit that lives within us. You’ll know it’s from him if you have peace about it, even in the midst of crazy circumstances. It will also be supported by the Bible. If you share it with other Godly people who you’re close too, there shouldn’t be any red flags that go off to them. When it comes to prophesies we have for people, he gave an interesting analogy. We are like Fed Ex workers. We have a package to deliver and it’s our job to figure who it goes too. We don’t know what’s inside the package or what it will mean to them. We may occasionally get the wrong address, but we should be willing to keep trying. We have to put ourselves out there and risk willing to be wrong. In doing that we learn to trust God and to understand his voice even better. For all the wrong addresses we deliver to, it makes it all worth it when we get it right.
I know that I'm willing to look like a fool in order to get it right. How far are you willing to go in order to affect a person's life by following that Godly voice inside you?
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