Physically weak, Spiritually strong

Tonight while I had been writing back to families from all over the world, who are interested in me being their nanny, I am reminded of a particular family I was talking too recently. After my time was up in Canada I had planned on going to Greece to be a nanny for a family for the summer time. I couldn’t remember why I stopped pursing the family and talking to them, just that I stopped very suddenly. I really wanted it to work out, I just really felt it wasn’t the right next step for me.  I remember just really feeling like I was suppose too go home. Now fast forward a few months later, here I am, not even sure what I should be doing at home, and I can’t even step outside without a major grass allergy attack (even though I am on medications). I have been actually planning on writing a much longer blog, but haven’t been able too the last couple of nights. I don’t just have allergies where I occasionally sneeze. I’m talking about the kind of allergies where you can barely get anything accomplished in a day because you basically feel sick all day. My eyes are so watery and itchy I can barely see out of them and my nose hasn’t taken a break from running all day. This all started up again once I arrived back here in “Death Valley” where people who don’t even usually have allergies to trees or grass, have them here. So besides that set back and the toll it’s taken for me to be productive throughout my day, I just don’t see how I’ve grown yet from being back here. It’s nice to see that this stronger person that had developed while traveling is still very much present and permanent, even when put back into normal day life and used-to-be-temptations. I just have to trust that even though I am still unsure of what that reason is I am here for a couple months, it will be like every other place I have been in. There always ends up being a clear reason why I was there. I just pray more than anything that God uses me to bless people while I am here. Then I can rest assured that these few months weren’t wasted.